All smiles after the hard work - photo credit Maureen Weldon |
I was delighted to be asked to give a workshop with
Chester Poets, such a friendly and talented group of people! It was
held in the Friends' Meeting House,
set amid the city's truly
arresting architecture.
This was particularly appropriate as I'd chosen to introduce the
work of William Stafford, who was a Quaker, and to look at both
his poetry and his prose writings on the process and the teaching of
writing.
When
I first read him, a year ago now, his words had an immediate
and
inspiring effect. The quotes below are from two of his books –
Crossing Unmarked Snow and You Must Revise your Life.
“A
writer is not so much someone who has something to say
as...someone
who has found a process that will bring about new
things he would not
have thought of if he had not started to say
them.”
“My
morning writing would begin for me by getting up about four
o'clock.
...I lie down on the living room couch in front of a
big...picture
window which looks out on our quiet neighbourhood.
The giant fir
trees, ...rhododendrons and so on outside. I'm lying
there relaxed, I
have a blank sheet in front of me. I put the date on
top, and I start
letting whatever swims into my attention get
written down on the
page....I welcome anything that comes along.
I don't have any
standards.......I am not trying to contend for a
place in magazines
or in books. I'm just letting my attention flow
where it wants to
flow. And the relaxation of it is part of the charm
for me.”
Among
his themes are
the
linking
of inner and outer – the world of actual events located
in time and
place, and the world of the imagination, the river of the
inner life.
Writing
as exploration & journey. In this journey there are no maps
but
you are accompanied by your own inner compass and guidance.
The
importance of being authentic, rather than 'good'.
The
necessity of making mistakes/the value of getting lost and of
developing total trust and belief in your own processes.
I
used one of his writing exercises as a starting point. The road to
your home or town or to an imagined home where you would like
to live.
The
day was humid and sultry, the windows of the room were
open, but it
was hot inside, and silent, just the sound of
concentration, (yes, it
has its own sound, like the faintest hum of
distant bees) notebook
pages flicking over, people lifting bottles of
water and replacing
them, heads bent over pages, people wrote
quickly, without editing
their thoughts first, immersed in the
present, going where their
inner river took them. Faint murmur of
voices from people sitting
outside in the garden.
When
people read out their work, there was a childhood memory
of coming
home from school with 'rooks rioting overhead'. More
than one person
followed a path or came to a gate or doorway
where a threshold was
crossed, marking a boundary into another
world, only subtly different
from this one.
There
were contrasts between urban 'whirlpools round the ringroad'
and
rural, 'trees [that] protect me' and there were train journeys,
rain
on windows and nostalgia, there was a character setting out
into a
completely unknown world, reminding me of Parsifal the
innocent,
about to enter life's theatre and learn, through the
mistakes he will
make, about the ways, customs and meanings of
the world, how it
differs from his own imaginings, how it will
eventually, reconnect
with the larger world, of the imagination, of
metaphor, of soul and
spirit.
'...if
you're lost enough, then the experience of now is your guide
to what
comes next. None of us knows what comes the next second.'
'Let
me plead, not for ignoring advice from wherever it comes, but
for
allowing in your own life the freedom to pay attention to your
feelings while finding your way through language. ….........Into
the
unknown you must plunge, carrying your compass.....You must
make
'mistakes'; that is, you must explore what has not been
mapped out
for you......Like Don Quixote ...you must loosen the
reins and go
blundering into adventures that await any traveller
in this
multilevel world …..and like Don Quixote you must expect
some
disasters. You must write your bad poems and stories; for to
write
carefully as you rove forward is to guarantee that you will
not find
the unknown, the risky, the surprising. Art is an activity in
which
the actual feel of doing it must be your guide; hence the
need for
confidence, courage, independence.'
William
Stafford
For
the second exercise, since William Stafford stresses the
importance
of 'being lost' – a remembered or imagined lostness.
One of the
enjoyable things about using a fairly broad topic like
this, is the
different ways that people will interpret it.
Being lost in some cases involved that powerful feeling of lines of
connection, linking trails and sense impressions dissolving, being
rubbed out, vanishing and mocking your sense of being part of
anything beyond you, and the
acute and sudden alienation that can
bring. This usually involved
being on mountains and in unknown
terrain. The word panic came up a
few times, reminding of the
nature god Pan, at home in his terrain
and challenging your
presence there. Will you pass the test and be
allowed to find your
way out of the wood or down from the mountain?
There
was a lost object, and the blurring of a visual sense, an ironic
take
on a 'riverside walk' where 'you can't get lost' if you keep the
river on your right, but which actually went nowhere near the river,
highlighting the strange logic of public signs! Another involved the
loss of a moral compass, a 'man without maps' and there was an
atmospheric description of a 'lost' building, eerily abandoned, but
with its own individual sense of desolation.
In
David Subacchi's Journey, we get the sense of moving fast
through landscape, one image coming into focus then falling away
behind, Time here has rhythm and urgency, as we move through
history
as well as space.
JOURNEY
Cardigan
Bay at my back leaving screaming gulls
And
postcard sunsets behind
Climbing
afforested hills
Through
grey ribbon villages
Past
the long abandoned spaces
Of
stone churches and Victorian school rooms
Up
over Eisteddfa the moon landscape
Where
in winter snow descends
Like
a theatre fire curtain
Blocking
passage to all
On,
on eastwards by-passing Llanidloes
With
its ancient market hall
Following
a road that once was a railway
To
industrial Newtown burial place of Robert Owen
And
scene of Chartist riots
A
place where labour was sold to factory and mill owner
Then
forward to Welshpool’s agricultural wealth
Where
dignity was sold to Lord Powys
North
now in and out of England’s border
Rodney’s
Pillar glaring down over Criggion’s quarry
To
Oswestry more Welsh than English
Yet
part of red soiled Shropshire
To
arrive at Bersham where high above
The
last relic of coal mining
Dominates
the landscape for miles
Desperate
attempts to grow trees
Failing
miserably to disguise
That
this is a slag heap
And
so to Wrexham biggest town in North Wales
Border
town, garrison town, once a mining
Brewing,
brick and steel making town
Now
a battered town
Scrambling
for its dignity
Holding
the line
Between
survival
And
obscurity.
David
Subacchi
July
2014
And
in his Empty Property, while it is the house that is 'lost',
the
powerful energy of abandonment that inhabits it seems to prowl
like a wounded creature protecting its own space.
EMPTY
PROPERTY
The
front door was stiff
Requiring
a kick to open
The
sort of kick I imagine
Policemen
or bailiffs deliver
When
enforcing entry
As
is normal when houses
Have
been vacant
For
some time
The
smell of decay
Hung
everywhere
With
pen, paper and clipboard
I
made cursory notes
More
to prove I had inspected
Than
to record anything
That
might be worthwhile
A
glance at every
Decaying
room was enough
To
satisfy me
That
this was really
A
bit of a dump
Turning
to exit
The
door resisted
Refusing
to budge
As
if showing contempt
For
my disrespect
In
panic I forced myself
Out
the back way
Into
an overgrown garden
Rusted
hinges
Groaning
in protest
Not
looking back
I
stepped over a garden wall
Into
the alley way
Looking
this way and that
Blushing
with embarrassment
Behind
me the empty house
Sneered
in its loneliness
As
I limped back to the car
My
throat dry
Every
muscle aching.
David
Subacchi
July 2014
(Both
of these were written during the workshop, and are
reproduced here
with his permission)
Here you can read about David Feela's encounter with William
Stafford
And after the workshop, there was just time to walk along
Chester's walls overlooking the racecourse, and watch the last race
of the day!
Comments
talking of finding the way, of being lost and of allowing oneself to listen to surroundings for guidance. Talk of making mistakes being necessary ... What a brilliant workshop to have, M! and also loved especially the poem about the empty house. I don't know why exactly but it seemed to put me in touch with some lost memory, I felt I knew that place that feeling - but obviously I don't really.
Thanks to David Subacchi.
Have found the term 'lost soul' coming to mind quite often these days, then block the thought off - 'cant be that, can't have that'. what you have written has given me lots of hope and lots of inspiration. Thank you! xxx
Thanks for sharing the poems.....Wow!
Rubyxx